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I just started on my Introduction to Political Science
revision and it is already killing me !! AHHHHHH !!!!
There are like so many chapters to read and to make
things worse, there are like 2 freaking books !!!!
To make things even worse, there are pre-posted
final exams essay questions to prepare. 20 questions
are given but only 4 are going to be tested. AHHHH !
So much things to prepare and so little time.
I am just so tempted to tell her to stop calling or
sms me. Communicating with her is just painful
these days because she only contact me when she
needs to know critical information about the exams
or the school administration matters. Other than
that, I hear nothing from her. She does not even ask
how am I doing and how is study week coming along
for me. Somehow, I am feeling my old bastardy self
coming back again but it will only be towards her alone.
MUAHAHAHHHAHA !!!! She has already chosen the path
that she wants to take and we are definitely not walking
on the same path.
I have found a certain level of acceptance within me
that I will be staying single and she is not making things
easier for me in the letting go process. I must say I do
not love her anymore and I'm determined to stop missing
her entirely. (i did not contact her for the last 3 days until
she smsed me this morning but I shoo her away). I guess
I had enough of her bad attitude towards me these days
that I do not see a point in being nice to her anymore. Since
she has already found someone who is "nicer and sweeter"
than me, she can depend on that person entirely. Her future
are no longer in my hands and I cannot advise her what she
should do for her school life, even though I am damn good
at it. HAHAHAHA !!! EGO !! But please be clear, I do not hate
her at all. I just want her to let me live on own life without
her interfering.
I want to thank GOD for all the people that HE has appointed
to come talk to me when I am at the lowest point of my life
and brought me back to my walk with GOD once again after
walking a different path for about 8 years. I really appreciate
all those who were there for me and I do not know how to
thank them. Now, I am just taking my time to find my goals
again and get myself refocus with the priorities of my life.